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James Brown is dead, err, my fantasy or imagination is dead

 
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kyonides



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PostPosted: Mon Jul 19, 2010 3:58 am    Post subject: James Brown is dead, err, my fantasy or imagination is dead Reply with quote

IDK but lately I feel... lately, yeah right, I'd say for the last year or so I've been feeling like I lack of imagination or inspiration or even fantasy at all. I stop conlanging (even if I posted a short topic on a third conlang some time ago) and conworlding. It's not a language or cultural barrier but I gotta say that Spanish speaking fora aren't the best place for this kind of topics, the ones I visited are now defunct.

I started a book based on 3 or 4 main characters and all of them deserved a whole chapter divided in several episodes at all such "boring" details. I wrote about 150 pages and suddenly stopped. I've posted some episodes online and even so I haven't come back to finish it or at least add a paragraph or two here and there. It's been years since I last touch it... That never made me feel like I was wasting or losing my imagination. How weird...

What I've been doing for the last couple of years is writing a poem or two (not) every so often that may be even worse than my first attempts to become a writer / poet / etc. Suddenly in 2008 I started conlanging after a decade or so where I never thought about making words, sentences, composing (fake) letters or something the like. Then I resumed what I started while writing my unknown book, picked up a city name and a few royal titles and kept going until I had created Kexyana. Perhaps it's not the most original conlang out there, but that's what my mind could actually conceive at that time.

(I remember when I was a boy and I took my brother's book on learning German and tried to record a cassette with all my fake sentences that simulated to be another language. I even tried to convince my sister to lend me a hand and pronounce some incomprehensible words aloud.)

Well, I lied when I told you I just wrote a poem or two, I also spend some time writing game scripts that would allow an Object Oriented Programing interpreter run it and make some changes in a game maker system. Besides this I can only post a few disperse ideas on a magic system like I did in conworlds forum or some questions about your conworlds, consocieties. Nothing revived my desire to create a imaginary world or recreate the world as I'd like it to be. You might even think after a post of mine I'd run to take some notes and develop another aspect of my societies but the truth is I never did that. Possibly I just felt it wasn't such a great idea and stopped thinking about it and threw it straight to the trash can.

All of this makes me think I do have my imagination or fantasy intact but somehow I always end up killing it once and again. I'd be sabotaging my own creativity but why the hell do I do such a terrible thing?

As a side note I must admit I also experience lots of extended periods of time where I can't even modify one of my gaming scripts or make a new one with some new cool features included or make it resemble one of our favorite old games we never forget about... even if I still play them thanks to an emulator...

Did / Do you also think "hey, what's happening to me"?
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PostPosted: Mon Jul 19, 2010 4:28 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

Basically, you start projects that you never feel like finishing? It's no big deal, everybody does. Don't worry - there's nothing wrong with your imagination or creativity. You're just flipping between whatever you feel like working on at the moment.

I myself am very guilty of this. I've got IDK how many dropped projects here and there - translating a webcomic for fun, writing that Japanese textbook I posted on here, writing a story, various kinds of conworlds/althists (you'd be surprised how rarely I feel like working on Emitaru), the whole thing. Recently I bought a video game that I played nonstop for two or three days, then I just put it down to go do something else and I haven't touched it since (it's been a couple of weeks).

So don't worry. Everybody (or at least, a not-insignificant number of people) does this kind of thing.
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PostPosted: Mon Jul 19, 2010 4:36 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

So you think it's OK to believe it's normal but what if you feel some day like you really want to spend some time in developing a story and you know your mind tries to make you start or continue that project almost at all costs (and you have some free time available) and even so you don't do anything about it?

(BTW, in your signature you included a link to your user page on wiki. Well, my browser couldn't open it...)
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PostPosted: Mon Jul 19, 2010 4:03 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

kyonides wrote:
So you think it's OK to believe it's normal but what if you feel some day like you really want to spend some time in developing a story and you know your mind tries to make you start or continue that project almost at all costs (and you have some free time available) and even so you don't do anything about it?

This happens ALMOST EVERY DAY to me. I get some great idea while laying in bed trying to fall asleep, and when I get up the next morning I'm like 'meh, don't feel like it', even though I have absolutely nothing else to do. I've been meaning to work on a script that I've had planned for almost a year now, and still haven't even started.

It's perfectly normal. (Either that or we're both weird in the same way.)

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(BTW, in your signature you included a link to your user page on wiki. Well, my browser couldn't open it...)

Typed the URL in wrong ^_^ It's fixed.
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